Friday nights are almost everybody’s favorite. It’s the beginning of a weekend. Everyone goes out. Friday’s are fun, adventurous, and spontaneous. At least for me, they are a time where I can go out and enjoy life. They are a time where I don’t have to worry about criticism, hate, or anxiety. I can be carefree, love my friends, and live my life.
Last Friday night, I had gone out with friends after a long week that included a severe depressive episode, and I had an amazing time. We got tacos, visited a used book store, purchased a few music albums and candles, and we even took a trip into the toy store which resulted in plenty of nostalgic moments. The point is, I had fun, and I enjoyed myself after not feeling emotionally stable all week.
Later that night, I was sitting outside a Starbucks in the center of town with a male friend of mine. It was 11:00 at night, and we were waiting for the bus. He was smoking a cigarette and I was sitting on the sidewalk next to him, having a quiet conversation about the day. Suddenly, a car quickly drives past. A girl peeks her head out the passenger side window. “You look like a f***ing hooker.”
My heart stopped for a short second. Anxiety overwhelmed me. My friend shook his head and gave me a hug. He told me I looked perfect, but that still didn’t help. It felt like everybody had been silently judging me throughout the amazing day that I had.
The bus ride was the worst part. It’s all I could think about during the whole ride. That one comment had almost ruined my entire night. Every time I think about that Friday, that’s what I’ll remember. It had physically made me sick. I just wanted to sleep, and forgot that the night ever even happened.
Why do girls feel the need to put other girls down? Matter of fact, why do humans feel the need to put other humans down? Think about the impact your words will have on someone. Think about how you could potentially make someone feel. Think about the fact that someone could of had a wonderful time after a terrible week, and one comment that you make could ruin that for them.
I hope that one day, we will live in a world where we no longer feel the need to put others down for fun, or to get others to like us, or to make ourselves feel better.
Until then, remember to love everyone and be kind. Be the change that this world needs.
Much love always.